Before I Wake (Kid Cudi Cover)

@Daniel-Baazov 6 months ago

Hey Montell. I’m just a kid who is 17 going through problems of my own. Your music was so blissful to me that I fell in love with the sound. I’ve just recently found you when I was chasing after a girl that turned out to be a parasite in my life. I fell from God when I was trying so hard to keep my love for God whilst loving her. I would constantly dream of her and I don’t think I’ll ever dream of someone so much ever again. I found out she had a boyfriend and she really just kept me as one of her side pieces. But no matter. I’m heading off to college soon. Trying to study medical. I have been trying to take my faith seriously for the last three years. God used me to spread his word and share my testimony unto others. Believe me when I say breakthrough is coming. I was trying so hard to do things my way that I lost sight of God and his plans for me. Dark thoughts surrounded my brain and feelings of being alone and afraid haunted me. Those dreams I’ve had of her haunt me. But even while I was crying at my table, thinking of how painful it feels to live. I kept my faith in God. I took up a summer job working at a Jewish summer camp. Maybe you know it? Located in Brighton. I was asking God to help me try and preach to my people about the Messiah. I asked him to guide my footsteps. Two weeks later on a Sunday I had a dream that I was working and I stepped outside. In the midst of me was a giant cross emitting light. In the same dream I’ve dreamt of the girl I had a crush on. She was surrounded by campers at my job and they were asking her questions. One of which was “what school do you go to?” She replied saying that she goes to college at NYU. The moment I’ve awoken I began questioning everything. On Monday I walked in and my supervisor mentioned a Bible verse to me about building up treasure in heaven instead of on earth. By that point I started confessing my faith to the campers and my coworkers. God was working. And the girl? I found out she does go to college at NYU a week later. My brain was boggled and I was trying to maintain the crush I had on her and the preaching I was meant to do for God. I prayed over kids, preached truth, dreamed dream, made friends, revealed my testimony unto others. I wanted to work there again for an after school program. I was told by someone there that I would get a call back from him to let me know and get my papers. He never called I was feeling sorrowful because I altered my school schedule just so that I could work. I’ve had dreams about myself working there. I was asking God in prayer to lead me by his will. Not by mine. Some 6-7 weeks pass by. I got a message from that supervisor who was supposed to call me (not the supervisor who preached to me😅) But I was surprised! After waiting so long and returning back to God, I got the job. I’m trying to get my papers signed now and focus more on God than ever. My testimony is this, have patience throughout all circumstances. We feel mentally anguished because of the air, food, and water we consume. Jesus will fight against the wickedness in government and in high places. My friend who brought me closer to God was recently shot and sent to jail. I’ve had two dreams that he would return substantially early and nobody in my PS group chat believed me! Guess what? He came back. Still preaching the word of God. Have faith brother Montell. Shoot, I’m only 17 But we all go through troubles in life. Don’t be the person who mopes around reading the book of Ecclesiastes and falls flat in his nihilistic thinking. God is more than that. I suggest you check out Nicholson1968 and Leonard Ulrich. Please do. Realize how much more God truly impacts your life. There is so much to learn. God is within you. That power that you once felt unworthy of having is still in you and Jesus delights in the powers of the spirit that he gives to us. I myself was given the ability to dream dreams and see visions. Your power is to be melodic and create godly music. Don’t waste that talent God gave you! Have hope and endure! I’ll be praying for you All glory to God🙌🙌 My supervisor that preached the word to me at my job also makes music for God and invited me to write a song with him! God is working miracles brother. You are an inspiration to many! Keep your head raised and know that a breakthrough is coming! Praise God!