Sobriety Completely Transforms You (sober vlog pt.2)

You’re not getting fatter. The dry fat is just properly hydrated.

rusty: goes sober. 4 days later: G A R L I C

A quote that has stuck with me : “The Man Takes A Drink, The Drink Takes A Drink, The Drink Takes The Man.” Don’t listen to your brain. It knows that it only needs to talk you into 1 drink, then you’ll handle the rest from there. Rooting for ya, buddy.

He shaved his head and became the internet’s busiest music nerd.

its only been a week, and hes already become a cultist

Why does rusty cage look like a chemistry teacher who was diagnosed with cancer and now makes meth to pay his hospital bills?

This guy looks like Steve Buscemi's and Johnny Depp's son

This, is truly the moment Rust became Heisenberg.

Rusty: Goes sober Also Rusty: JESSE, WE NEED TO COOK.

It sounds like your doing pretty good physically, maybe not mentally but I think your doing alright

Being sober transforms you into Anthony Fantano.

I can't say I'm proud of you because I'm not your mom or anything. But as an alcoholic myself and the mother of sons who are big fans of yours I can't tell you how amazing you are. The honesty of this is just lovely. You're wonderful. That's all.

I love how in his sobriety, Rusty became a cultist obsessed with hair and growing garlic in his backyard

Rusty: I’m going sober Also Rusty a few days later: H A I R I S I M P U R E Though seriously, you’re doing pretty good, yeah, you gave in, but you can get back from it, whichever way works for you (within reason)

relapsing is part of the whole process of getting back into sobriety, a lot of people, including myself, relapse multiple times before finally getting properly sober (just relapsed again today but over the past few weeks I've been feeling better and better when not drinking so I think this is one of the few last relapses I will go through before quitting completely). Don't beat yourself up over it, just acknowledge your cravings and what exactly you were feeling right before you relapsed and drank alcohol again. If you beat yourself up over giving in to the addiction you'll only feel worse mentally which will make you want to drink more in the long run, forgive yourself. Reflect on what you might want to do next time you really want to drink again, and move on. Also, the advice some people give about keeping busy is super helpful, one of the first times I quit drinking again I managed to stay sober for like 3 months because I literally never gave my mind any rest and kept either talking to friends or finding a creative outlet to work on. That kind of thing also gives you a sense of accomplishment and that makes not drinking even easier, the thought of rewarding yourself with alcohol afterward seems completely unrealistic to you because your reward is already the feeling of sobriety and a clear mind and not having a terrible hangover the next morning. It also makes working out much, MUCH easier since you aren't dehydrated anymore and don't have a headache every time you try to lift heavy weights, so you aren't as afraid of exercise since you know it's not going to be nearly as painful as when you were still drinking. Another thing that personally helps me to slowly stop drinking is always allowing yourself a day of the week to drink on, for me it's Friday. When I know that it isn't the last time I'm ever allowed to drink again then it really helps not drinking on the other 6 days of the week, because I know that eventually I will still be allowed to get absolutely smashed and I just have to be patient and persevere through the next few days until I finally get to have my precious vodka again. After a few weeks you can cut that number down to just one day every other week, and you still have that sense of comfort in your mind knowing that you can still eventually drink alcohol, you just have to work for that reward by staying sober for a little bit of time. Eventually, if you do intend on completely quitting, you can just keep extending the time between drinking more and more, but this is personally not my plan, I still intend to drink like once a month just for fun. For some people what also helps is knowing how completely fucked your liver is. If you really have been drinking heavily almost every day for the past 3 years, your liver is basically standing on its last legs. The permanent damage is already done and it will keep getting worse for as long as you keep frequently drinking. The cells of your liver saturate with fat, and after enough drinking they will burst and form liver cirrhosis. Those cells are completely dead and will never regenerate. So basically the only thing you can do is minimize the damage and give the remaining fatty liver cells enough time to turn back to normal and hope that the permanent damage will not fuck you someday in the future.

"Just one shot" I don't drink, but I definitely tell myself that revolving around my own addictions. It's really hard to overcome addiction especially when relaspsing is so easy and at the time it feels so right. I hope you don't let that destroy you though, we all make mistakes. All you can do is just move along and keep on trying.

The music is perfect.

Bald Rusty with glasses: Walter White Bald Rusty no glasses: Seth Everman with mustache

Day 20 he’s rolling around on the floor naked covered in hand sanitizer.

Pride, Peer Pressure and “Friends” started your addiction, Pride and Peer Pressure was my downfall too, my friends didn’t even know I had a problem and they slowly started to distance themselves, as more time went by. They started lives, as I was slowly ending mine. I used to be very social and out going as a kid and teenage before my addiction, but once I started my addiction, I started to become antisocial. I was so depressed and I never thought that I would meet a great girl like all my friends did, some of them even had kids. I never got to have kids, and as I was getting older, I basically felt so paranoid and full of anxiety around people, co workers and especially when meeting with girls that actually liked me. I told myself that I had to be high to be able to talk to a girl, and I was able to meet a lot of cool girls, but when they found out about my addiction, they left and that’s because they didn’t want to see me kill myself. Somehow and some way, the universe brought a great woman into my life, and she never left my side, even when she found out about my addiction. She dealt with my drug binges, work write ups, stealing her mommy for more drugs, and finally my OD moment. After literally dying for a bit, she worked together with my mom and sent me to a rehab and it took a lot of time, but I finally was able to be clean and sober for years now, and I am married to the awesome woman who saved my life. There are good people out there, even if you believe there isn’t, they won’t give up on you and actually help you. Watching Rusty go through this, has brought up a lot of my past and I apologize for me commenting about it, but I just wanted whoever will read this that is going through the endless cursed cycle of lonely addiction and think that they will never be clean. If a loser like me got clean and sober, and literally have a great person come into their life and not only help them, but love them unconditionally too. Then most definitely you all out there can find your escape and happiness too, you just have to keep on going and surviving and you will be free. Even if Rusty don’t get to read my comment, it’s ok, he is busy going through his life’s journey and I’ll be grateful just knowing that I was able to help someone here in this comment section with a few words and my past experiences. Godspeed everyone ✊🏼✌🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼👍🏼✊🏼.