Border _ : A compassionate documentary on Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) FULL MOVIE

if you have BPD and not feeling stable don't go near the comments. love yourself enough to avoid the morbid curiosity and drama.

I have bpd and the mimicking thing is something I've been doing since a very young age. I'm 30 now and I still have no sense of who I am. I have no identity. It's an awful feeling. I was abused at 15 and emotionally I stopped developing at that age. I often feel like a child trapped in an adults body and in a very adult world and it's scary. I don't know if anyone else feels this way too?

Having BPD - A very lonely, depressing, frightening life. Not knowing myself, why I'm on this earth, the purpose and meaning of being alive, feeling lousy all the time, pretending or even thinking that I'm as happy as the people around me by making them laugh but feeling so lonely and numb when all alone, confused, wondering "it's all my fault", self blame, vulnerable, too trusting but also afraid to trust, feeling so empty, isolated, many many many more......

My best friend has BPD and she is one of the most wonderful and kindhearted people on earth. If I had a time machine, I'd travel back to the day after her mother fell pregnant with her and cut her abusive piece of shit father's throat before he could ever get a chance to hurt her. Even if that meant we would never cross paths... She is so incredibly brave and strong - I have nothing but love and respect for her. I probably wouldn't last a week in her shoes. I wish I could help her to not be in pain anymore.

I just want to say that you can be "recovered" (of course there's chance for relapse!). I have worked incredibly hard over the few years and am so proud of myself. I have lingering anxiety but it's manageable. My moods are regulated (without medication) my huge abandonment fears are about a 3/10, and as a whole my life is fantastic. I graduated university, have an awesome job, engaged and have a fantastic social and family life. There is a light at the end of the tunnel - be stubborn with your condition, don't let it dictate your life.

I always feel so much less alone and like a freak when I hear other people's experiences with BPD and can relate. 

Remember guys and guys, this debilitating condition affects both sexes. I was diagnosed earlier in 2013 with this after 7 years of mis diagnosis of Bipolar type 2. Everything is super hard on some days, at the moment I am going through a bereavement breakup from 2 months back, it may be something trivial for most men.. Nothing is easy.. Much love to you all that are dealing with this day to day x

Every time I hear about BPD its a sense of relief for me. I have never been formally diagnosed but I fit all the criteria and when I hear people talking about their experiences its like they are telling my story.

Great video and testimonies. Many people who love someone with BPD end up suffering from mental trauma as a result of their exposure to the disorder, and should seek counseling or therapy as well. I am still affected after six years removed from a relationship which was 10 years in duration. I had to have her committed 4 times. I finally left the relationship after she repeatedly refused to enter herself into long-term therapy. This was necessary for my own sanity. No matter how much you love a person with BPD, you are doing yourself and them no favors by remaining in the relationship if they refuse to get help. You should not expose yourself to this for 10 years as I did. It's extremely sad and depressing to leave someone you love and worry about. But if they are not going to get help you need to think about your own mental health and happiness, because they won't magically ever get better and will pull you into their hell.

Good luck to all of my sisters and brothers also living with this illness. Thinking of you always. Xx

BPD is very hard to live with. Many articles and research is condescending and bias it makes BPD sufferes feel bad and evil. And infact BPD is a very painful disorder to live with. The constant liking and hating of people, the impulsive behavior such as drinking and taking drugs, the radical changes in body image and identity change. These cognitions are very hard to live with and this must be sympathized with.  

The husband towards the end, hats off to you my friend. That's how people need to be in relationships when BPD effects one of the partners. We need to stay strong when others have walk away, and understand the person w/ BPD hates it just as much as you, but 100x more.  As a sufferer and an ex of someone who had similar issues, its a blessing when you find someone who is willing to work with you in order to deal with and possibly break through this debilitating condition. 

Do these people ever have regret for all the deliberately inflicted pain and harm they have done to the people in their path? Or is it all about them?

I love this documentary! Makes me feel less alone ♡ To anyone you who have BPD like myself, you are loved and so amazing! Stay strong!!

This really doesn't help the stigma that it's only women who have it. The whole documentary it literally looks like tea time with the girls. I'm a guy and I have it and many, many others do too.

This has no men in it. Kinda makes BPD men feel a bit ignored with their problems. Its a lovely documentary still.

It has been 1 year since my official diagnosis. I have been doing DBT for the last year, not as consistently as I should but none the less making strides. The hardest part is my husbands shaming and BPD labeling- it makes me feel less than human. Having the diagnosis seems to have created a double edged sword. Hearing others find the words that I can't say helps immensely to restore my sense of humanity. Thank you for this video.

Borderlines who have sane loved ones who want to help - this is a new concept for me.

I have not sought out help from a psychiatrist, with the closest thing being going to a MD after separation from my partner of 3 years. I have not been diagnosed with BPD, but I relate a lot with what I know of it. I have a long history of feeling wrong, like an outsider, a stranger in my younger years. I was rejected a lot. Despite having a better situation now of people around me who don't judge, I find it incredibly hard to talk candidly or relax. I don't know how to "Be myself". Like the lady in the video, I feel like a chameleon trying to imitate others who I am speaking to, who I am in relationships with, who are in my life. This is because I don't know who I am. I have low self esteem and I feel like any idea of self that I come up with is never good enough. It's because I don't want to be rejected. It's because I want to feel "normal", so I try to be like "normal" people. Key values in life such as the morals i hold, religious values etc depend on who I am with. I don't feel like I can ever choose something for myself. I have trouble understanding whether someone is joking or being insulting, social cues, etc. I've burnt so many bridges and destroyed relationships because of my intense feelings. I feel extremely detached from the outside world. My world is an internal one, with thoughts and emotions raging about. I always feel lonely, despite having many great people in my life. Being by myself is very hard, any many times due to overwhelming loneliness and negative feelings and thoughts, I have considered and attempted suicide. I feel like I need intimacy. Now that I am single, and have been for the past year, I feel as though I'm slowly decaying inside. An empty void. Overall, my feelings and thoughts don't give me much time to relax. There's always something to feel wrong about, something to add to the heavy emotional burden i bear. I try to drown it out through impulsive activities. through watching TV surfing the web for any and all kinds of distractions. This leads me to hating myself and thinking negative thoughts about wasting time and being a loser, and the cycle continues. I have a recorded history of intense anxiety. I think up the worst situations possible and almost always believe they will come true.  I love myself, but I hate feeling wrong. For someone who is not a sufferer, this may be hard to understand. It may be hard to understand that I don't want pity. I don't want people telling me I have it hard or someone else has it worse. All I want is to be normal.

Thank you so so much for this. I am in the early stages of being diagnosed with BPD after a lifetime of struggling with myself and didn't really know much about it when my psychiatrist mentioned it to me, but after watching this I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so hopeless, I've finally found something I identify with and can share with others to help them understand me better too. Thank you so much. This is life-changing for me.