to anyone feeling lonely and feels like they don’t belong | journal entry ep. 4

my entire life ive felt im like 'watching over' normal people. I can see everyone living normal lives and behaving normally but that was something i can never have or had. yknow how sometimes you can only admire what others have from afar because it wasnt meant for you. idk how to explain but i feel im just watching a movie im not involved in

I get depressed when I see everyone having the best time with their friends and I'm just staying here doing nothing. Everyday I wake up and I don't even have a message. Its just horrible.

Having a friend group but still feeling like you don't belong is so exhausting, it feels like being stuck with some people just to not feel lonely. Hey, this is me 4 months later...It does get better, I started Uni with a whole different mindset from highschool, If you search you find. Feeling lonely is soo normal, but there's always people that are actually worth it. Fist step: Change your mindset so you can actually see yourself and other people from a new perspective.

Its weird how so many of us exist but can never find eachother yk? Like theres so many lonely people that have common interests yet it always feels like literally everyone else has that super social normal life style? Idk maybe its just me, hurts to see others online talking about feeling left out bc all i wanna do is sit with them and let them know they can be themselves and still be appreciated by the right people, social status means nothing.

It’s both comforting and sad how this message speaks to so many people. We need a solution to finding community more than ever

I don’t have a friend group. I literally only have 3 people that I talk to. But I feel like they’re their own friend group. And that im just there. I really want to fit in with them.

In university I also sat alone during lunch for quite a long while... Now almost 5 years later I am such a strong person and go to concerts or movie theaters alone and I am happy - because I can ❤

If you ever feel lonely, just remember that there are trillions of cells inside you, that literally can't live without you

All of what you said is exactly how I've been feeling pretty much my whole life, especially as I'm still in school. Usually when we're lonely, we blame ourselves: "What I've done wrong?", "Am I really that unlikeable?", "Youth isn't as fun as everyone tells, I'm wasting these years". Well, I try to convince myself being alone is better in some ways: I'm independent, I get to know myself better, discover new hobbies and focus on studies. But still, sometimes I just can't hold back sadness when I see other people having so much fun with friends and having another person to share feelings with, while I have no one but myslef really 😕

so true... because of how introverted i can be i feel like i just come across as a boring person to other people. i can't speak to people very well, not because im shy but i just can't move a conversation forward and then the relationship never progresses. and whilst most of the time i dont mind being by myself, and enjoy my own company, sometimes i wish i made a new friend or two after starting college to make it a bit more bearable. everyone is walking around in big groups and most of the time im by myself. even if i have friends they have their own friend group that i just cant see myself becoming a part of ever, and i start thinking that they'd rather be hanging out with them instead of me because im not as much fun. im happy most of the time tho, just those odd times you start thinking too much 😌

idk how to describe it, but this video and this comment section feel like a safe and comforting space. the vibes are just so chill here, and i dont feel lonely :)

yep, I feel the same way, no friends in uni, introverted and also being neurodivergent all contribute to feeling like the wallflower, but it’s so crazy how many of us feel the same way and how we haven’t met each other :( just sucks that the best people are alone

After watching this video , i highly suggest starting a podcast because even though the things you talk about are so relatable for so many people but also because your voice is so comforting , you are becoming my comfort person to watch and listen to😭🤍

You’ve just described how I’ve been feeling my entire life that I couldn’t put into words.

The reading a book to not feel like a loser is so true haha

It’s crazy how people from all over the world have the same worries. This is an amazing video. I definitely relate to this. Thank you

growing up as an autistic girl i feel like such an alien. always having to put myself through a filter and trying my hardest to be a certain way to make other people comfortable, but even when i put so much effort into masking every day of my life i feel like i’ll never be able to fit in properly with my peers. i feel like i’m missing something everyone else has, something that comes really easy to them but i can’t mimic properly no matter how badly i wish i could. being neurodivergent is so isolating for this, and i’m scared i’m gonna feel this kind of loneliness and separation my whole life. i know it sounds cliche, but i just want to be really, really normal.

The way she validates so much of my own experiences is one of the many reasons she'll forever be my favourite person on the internet <333

I am literally crying you just described my entire life, watching this video and reading comments I have first realised that I am not alone like this

I can confirm that when you grow up with this trauma, as an adult, it really handicaps you in the “real world.” We need more awareness of this, and we need people to stop feeling bad about being this way. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! You are your own unique being, and I wouldn’t change anything about you. Leave the trauma behind - of eating school lunches by yourself, of constantly comparing yourself to other people in your high school friend group - it does not define you (probably has only made you more beautiful on the inside, because you’ve learned how to have compassion for people who are struggling). Bring what you were into what you are now, and just shine like the beautiful you.