Ren - Troubles

There's a really good chance we could chart with tthis one! This would be the first time in history a song about M.E and lyme disease would make the top 40 which would be huge for awareness. Moments like this are pinch me moments and make me feel good about keeping the promise to my younger self. That's because of all you guys so thankyou so much!! If you wana help secure that spot you can download Troubles on all platforms by following the link below Let's go!!! First official release of the year! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles Heres the lyrics for anyone who wants them I don't reach into the past very much for these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts, leave me stuck when I reach in, memories are seaped in hydrochloric acid, I go to war and get passive and freeze up, But music helped the ice to thaw, put a chizzel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor pull it out of the impossible, Excalibur sword etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings are sore The first day that I got sick ejected from cock pit of living Ninteen ,young teen, waking up Bitten posters up, man hunt, Ren went missing Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen The first year maybe was the hardest Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass Brain in the lions den Body in a sharkpit Waking up in pain again Aching broken hearted Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor to a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end So be the fate of Ren Every single question asnwered with a question on the end The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams mind severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes brain was inflamed The fatigue was Crushing Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting And the third year was murder Living in a purga-tory full of worry wouldn't live to be thirty Life style style hurt me Always in my bed tomb Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell doom Light hurt my eyes Popping pills to survive When you're 23 and mentally you steadily decline 24 I was poor disability benefits What's the benefit of disability it's irrelevant 25 and the scars that were etched... they cracked Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap Deep in phsycosis hallucinations, troubled vision Visits from the underworld were conjuring my Superstition 25, living back at home with my mum But not because I'm a bum Alone and physically done So thin, so frail, so week I'd become And my skin so pale, never kissed by the sun One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel Facts 26 im highly medicated and the pain sophisticated while im laying broke and naked on my back I brought my microphone into my Coffin, started droppin raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track Then man, lo and behold I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow And a cell transplant brought Me out of the Cold And my body got stronger And my skin got younger And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed And my soul heard music for the first time Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold Oh lord I forgive you Lord I forgive you Lord I forgive you Make me whole This music I give you Pain that I live through Everything I been through Is yours to hold

About a month ago I met a woman in her 50’s with Lyme disease. She’s from Brighton (REN’s hometown) and is part of a support group for other sufferers. I mentioned that I’d learned more about the disease through a musician called Ren. Her face immediately lit up, she described all the work he’s done to support her group - called him their hero. All of this done quietly, without fuss and without seeking any credit. He’s a good man. ❤

May is Millions missing month, or M.E. awareness month. When I was first diagnosed with M.E. the amount of support and understanding of this illness was very low. I was left to suffer with no real explanation as to why. I wasn’t told at the time that this can be a by product of conditions like Lyme, POTS, MCAS, reactivating viruses. I had to figure that out by myself and it took years of trial and error, and treatments that often left me worse off until I was a functional human again. Over a decade later and the landscape still looks very much the same. Sufferers all over the world re left with debilitating, confusing symptoms and are left to drop off the face of the earth, unnoticed, because of the limited energy people have to advocate for themselves. People go from living fully active lives to trapped in bed, sometimes for decades, with no reasons why. M.E. a debilitating and cruel condition receives less than 6 times the amount of annual funding than Male Pattern Baldness. Nancy Kilmas, a proffesor of microbiology and immunology once stated: ‘My H.I.V. patients for the most part are hale and hearty thanks to three decades of intense and excellent research and billions of dollars invested. Many of my ME/CFS patients, on the other hand, are terribly ill and unable to work or participate in the care of their families. I split my clinical time between the two illnesses, and I can tell you if I had to choose between the two illnesses (in 2009) I would rather have H.I.V.’ I first hand experienced the crushing defeat of having a condition that there is little to no support for, and it breaks my heart to know that every day people are dropping off the face of the earth, and in many instances will be left to suffer for years with no full explanation or support. I am one of the fortunate ones who managed to manage symptoms enough to resume a mostly functional life. I therefore see it as a duty to speak on behalf of people who find themselves in a position where it’s difficult to speak for themselves. I wish I’d had more stories of hope at the time. Now I’m in a position where I could actively make a dent, even if a small one. Ive spent the last month putting together a detailed account of my story in hopes that it helps the people suffering feel less alone, gives them hope, and also hopefully raises awareness and rattles enough cages to highlight the severity of this illness to the point where more is done for it. The first instalment will debut on my YouTube and twitch channels tomorrow at 6:15 PM UK time, and will continue every day until the release of my next track ’Troubles’ on the 9th of may. I hope for the sake of all of us still actively fighting their hardest to participate in life, that this offers some kind of help, because I know what it’s like to feel hopeless. I love you Ren You can pre-save troubles by following this link! renmakesmusic.lnk.to/troubles

As a singer songwriter who currently battling with mast cell activation syndrome, POTS and other issues the Doctors don't have the funding to look into I absolutely love this and will be sharing all over. I have improved slightly and able to play some casual concerts now but the last 3 years have been hell and I also had stem cell therapy to try and help me to walk properly again with no help from the government. Let's get this charting big! Thanks for all you do. Love and spoons xx

THANK YOU, brother! Fibromyalgia has changed my life. Took years to be diagnosed and still no actual treatment. You are such a a gift!

I never comment, but I will for you Ren. YouTube gods please throw this on the recommended of everyone out there! <3

I remember your first go fund me campaign to get treatment, I was so moved by your music I donated from The States (Humboldt County), and now look at you!!!!! F Yes!!! Rock your Anthem Ren!! You’ve earned this!!!💪🏼❤️‍🔥🎶😎

Bro, I understand how fulfilling being on the mainstream charts must mean to an artist but trust me. How your art inspires people with your message of HOPE, is more important. Your authentic transparency has become a beacon to millons of people and I would bet that means more to you than anything else. You have the greatest gift, making people believe in hope again. Thank you.

To all you artists, performers, writers, poets, etc…. Ren has demonstrated a template to create meaning, solace, compassion, and empathy. I for one, had lost a considerable amount of my passion for music appreciation and my own creative potential. Though it may sound like hyperbole, the art Ren has created has markedly improved my life in several ways. I see REN’s influence in other aspiring independent artists who have written more creatively and made videos pushing their previous practices and methods.

I just played this for my daughter who has a Connective Tissue disorder, POTSsnd heart condition. It made us both cry, because we felt heard. Thank you Ren. Keep pushing bro, but remember to stop, breathe and just be as well. Luv ya ❤❤

My wife has been suffering with chronic pain, chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia for the last 7 years.we are not even sure the meds work anymore. I just introduced her to your music and she has really connected with it. Just wanna say thank you .

Congratulations on troubles reaching number 10 in the singles download charts 🥳❤

I watched woodstock happen, and yet I'm completely taken over by the brilliance of this vibrant artist.. Excellence is always appreciated 🌟

This isn't entertainment, this is real life. This is HOPE for so many people. Thank you! ❤

I'm 71. Yeah, I connect with this very deeply. Ren, you take me back in music style and messaging/eloquence & life journey - yet thrust me forward with your positive thinking and brilliant musicianship. Love this one-of-a-kind musician to bits. Transcends genre, boundaries, and age demographics. A bright shining star to watch.

My man Ren. I'm 46 years old and your music does something to me that I've never felt from music before. I appreciate you mate. As a Canadian I love that you found healing, and positive progress in my country. I cannot wait until you start touring. I'll be the guy in the front row singing every lyric to every song with you. Your song "Hi Ren " is a masterful piece of art. And "Troubles" stands right there beside it. Keep getting better brother, because this world needs an artist like you. Cheers mate🍻

I love how we typically beg for forgiveness but Ren is like "Lord I forgive you" for what he's been through. Generational artist ❤

I live in the Highlands, tick central, I know a few folk with Lymes, yer music has raised awareness in bairns everywhere to the dangers of Lymes, my hat is doffed...

Back in the early 80's I got Crohn's when I was 23 and it felt like being hit by a freight train. Life stopped and it felt like floating around in an isolated bubble of pain watching all your peers getting on enjoying their lives, while mine had been freeze framed. Took 'em 18 years to diagnose it in 1999. So thanks Ren. Although I still have Crohn's, because it's a chronic condition, songs like this help me work through those memories from those early days and it gives me closure on them. At 64 now, I had life saving surgery 18 months ago and everyday's enjoyment is magnified a dozen times over. Live for the moment brother.

Music doesn't usually make me cry... But this song did. I don't know why, but there's something about hearing someone's raw, unfiltered story with their struggles and health that hits hard, especially when it hits all time low territory This is music the world needs. Thank you, Ren 💖