"Addiction Said..." ~ Lil Eden
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Published 2023-01-16
sober life I've always feared
nothing left, for me here
straight and narrow, but I tend to steer
craving for this void to fill
instead i numb it so I can't feel
looking for someone for my soul to sell
always high but I'm never well
I swear I'm gonna go to hell
not for me
not for you
not for them
so fuckin who?
I just don't know what else to do
does it even matter anyway?
what if I'm meant to die this way?
addiction said "fuck me"
so fuck you too
inside my head I live alone
surrounded by everyone
but I don't care kuz I'm fuckin gone
searching for that place that I call home
my solitude feeds my misery n
is there still something left inside of me
giving up when I feel empty
giving in, to what seems like a part of me
fuck this life and these memories
not for me
not for you
not for them
so fuckin who?
I just don't know else to do
does it even matter anyway?
what if I'm meant to die this way?
addiction said "fuck me"
so fuck you too