Costco & Primark Shop, A Healing Cry, Cosy Bedtime Routine, Wedding Venue Chat & Dance Mum Life!VLOG

Oh Louise we all wish we could give you a big collective hug right now 😢

Wow good for you. “It’s not my dirt” will stay with me, what wisdom xx

My mother survived childhood abuse and she broke the cycle. She's been the kindest, most loving, most generous parent to me and my sister; we are truly blessed and I love her so much. I see the same happening with you. The bath time clip was so soothing, so healing, so gentle, and so indicative of the fact that you're giving your daughters a childhood brighter than your own. You're amazing, Louise. I'm so sorry for what you went through, but so proud of your recovery.

Wow! Little Louise would be so so proud of you not only sharing it with us but sharing it with someone who you knew was in her life! Forever proud of you Louise. All the things you are doing is really helping little Louise🩷

Louise, thanks for sharing your vulnerability after your interaction with the person at Costco. It's really important and it's good you shared with both that person and with us. ❤ xx

Stopped midway because I wanted to say how proud of you I am. I grew up in a home with an abusive parent so I know the effect it can have. You handle it so, so well. Way better than I do. Please don’t beat yourself up for the way you reacted. What you did is so brave and important.

“I came to Costco for pasta not PTSD” love it! You can make everyone laugh as we cry 😊

Thats a massive thing for you to do to someone you've not seen for years. You're such a strong inspirational woman. Sending you so much love ❤️

It's amazing to me to see that after all you went through as a child, you've grown into a beautiful, successful, sweet, caring woman and mother. She didn't win. You survived and have become the kind of mum your mother would have surely been to you. You deserve all the best ❤

As soon as you said, “this is not what this vlog is for” I found myself shouting - YES IT IS!! This is exactly what it’s for!! What a gift that we get to hold these tiny pieces of your story. Praying your strength to share might give hope or endurance to someone watching with a similar story or pain. And I’m thankful for the Mom it has helped you become. So thankful that if another kid at the girls’ school or dance schools was experiencing something similar they’d have a Mom like you to run to. I’m not thankful for your suffering, but so thankful to see what God has done with it ❤️

Had to stop part way through just to comment. You are such a brilliant, emotionally intelligent, empathetic person. You dealt with that situation so well both in the moment and afterwards. That includes everything that you described, the freezing up, the opening up, the shutting down afterwards and then crying whilst explaining it all perfectly. That is so important and so hard to do, and you did a fantastic job of it ALL. I found myself having a conversation with you (at the screen) whilst you were explaining it all wanting so much to reassure and encourage you as you went. You said you don’t know what this blog is for and who is to know that something like that would happen but this blog is now an amazing example for so many others as to how human it is to feel like this and totally understandable it is, but then also showing how to deal with it in a way that is helpful all whilst explaining and rationalising and reasoning with everything you were noticing about how you felt at the same time despite how overwhelming it can seem. You are a role model for so many for showing how you feel and how you dealt with it. So so very proud of you. ❤❤❤

That abuser does not get to go through life Scot free - she chose to abuse you and so you should tell everyone in the world. Doing this is stopping other little ones being abused by her AND other children in general, people will hear your story and relate it to their situation and it will help. Spread the word always, i’m so sorry it’s so hard but how brave and strong are you? Year by year you are helping and even saving more children 😊❤

You're so right, healing is sometimes just as painful as the initial abuse. But it is an upwards trajectory. You should be so proud of yourself for facing such pain so bravely ❤

Louise, thank you so much for being so vulnerable in sharing your experience. I found it so healing listening to you process that situation. Those incredibly wise words; 'it's not my dirt' will stay with me. The pain you've endured & are still healing from everyday is horrific, but i know in bravely sharing your story you will help so many. Hugs always, please be SO PROUD of you xxx

Being the size of a borrower inside someone´s pocket was actually one of my favourite childhood dreams because the idea of being protected felt so comforting! xx

We can see this was huge for you and you didn't hide! That is taking back control and standing up for little Louise. You did great and you are not alone ♥

Oh Louise, you should be so proud of yourself. I can't imagine how hard that was. I am so glad Liam was there after x

I’m so so proud of you for your interaction outside CostCo. Being that vulnerable and brave is hard but you deserve to be able to talk about it! Re: your reaction and how you felt after, from a biological point of view your brain/nervous system was thrown right back to those memories and your brain doesn’t know the difference between if it’s happening or not, so your fight or flight system massively kicked in to protect which is why you felt so shaken and adrenaline-y. Its a completely normal reaction when you’re re-processing those kind of memories and feelings. It’s also so empowering to see you let yourself feel but also remind yourself that you’re safe now. Hope you’re feeling a little better these days💛

Thank you for being so honest and raw, tears streaming down my face but it helps in some weird way to hear someone vocalising what I didn’t know I felt. I can’t imagine having to have a conversation with someone who knew my abuser (even saying that!), you did a very strong and empowering thing for yourself to speak up xx

I'm so grateful you've chosen to share your story. I've always felt that it connected with my experiences, but the mentions of animal trauma especially hit home. Thank you for your vulnerability, thank you for sharing and I wish you all the best with your journey 💓